too much to consider

another month to celebrate..hopefully happy,quite yes quite no..daming pressure and conflicts..grabe!..nweiz still glad and happy to be together pa rin..going stronger making for the better..whoa!..happy monthsarry honey..i love you so much..bye negative vibes and looking forward for more loving and happy moments together...it still "panalangin"(lam na)..

para sa isang freelancer!

para sa isang freelancer, na nabuhay at nanatiling matatag..cnanay ang sarili na mag isa at wag magtiwala sa iba, pinalalakas ang sariling kalooban,may sariling paninindigan at pananaw sa buhay, para sa iyo: hindi k nagsasalita para kaawaan ang sarili mo..sa kagustuhan mong sumaya kahit mahirap sa loob mo kelangan m pa rin gawin..dahil my iniingatan kana.. at hindi m na tinitingnan ang buhay mag isa..dahil my kakampi ka na at my kailangang panigan at pagkatiwalaan, mahirap sa cmula pero kung alam mong totoo at masasaktan k pag nawalay sau ang taong mahal mo, magagawa m ang mga bagay na isinumpa m noong di mo gagawin..hindi masama ang unang beses na pagtalikod sa kagustuhan m, pero kung mauulit bakit m gugustuhing masaktan ng paulit ulit kung pwede namang isang beses lang..ginagawa m to para sa taong mahal mo..kahit nasasaktan k sa ideyang "buti pa xa pinoprotektahan ng pinapahalagahan" samantalang ikaw, sumagi ba sa isip nia ang nararamdaman m? o dahil sa nakilala ka nyang matibay kea inaakala nyang hindi ka tinatablan?..paminsan minsan kelangan m din magsalita lalo na kung hindi n nakakatuwa..sa susunod na engkwentro, wag m hayaang pababain k ng pagmamahal kung buong pagkatao m na ang nsasaling..hindi masama mgbigay pero my limitasyon at hangganan..

bursting out for good and for peace!..

too much stress for the past week..uber ang conflicts at issues between me and huny..so far we did made to succeed out of it..it is really a good conversation that fix it all..glad i've made it to tell huny everything that stressed me..everything he forgots that hurts me.. everything he shud've known earlier before and everything he does that unintentionally hurts me..conflicts between us were not that easy but we knew we can fix it together, hand in hand.. but unfortunately there were people who was born to ruined somebody's happy life even if u were not doing anything against him or them!..he's envy..envy for the fact he hisself sees.. envy that were on the ryt path and he wasn't the same..because we think and planned..and we always wear our brains with our hearts!..envy for everything..and all he can do is to ruined our life to be close to his sitch.. though he was a close rather said a bestfriend, he doesn't have any business within our relationship!.he doesn't knew even a thing about us..he has no rigths to give a bullshit advice pertaining to one person he didn't knew at all!especially if the matter was sensitive and not needing anybody to realize aside from the two components of the rel..he's a shit!..he's pathetic..at first i felt mad to him but eventualy i got pity on him..I PITY U "DUDE"!cause he doesn't have anything ryt now..maybe a so called true love yes!but how far love will provide u pipol?..can it be true love with disposition?(like us?)..love with a way to success?(we love and do hoping together)..love with direction?(we wanted an accepted life)..is it enough to always hide?u can't even brougth u'r small family at u'r home..u can't even said to the world that he is ur son and she is u'r woman,can't even marry..u can't even walk without hesitations..u were down but stil don't admit the reality..that's why u did such stuff!...he did to be like him..miserable..i am sorry for those who were with you..they were better if your off..lol..with a highest intensity wearing of most boastful attitude in the whole wild world doing such a disgrace made him more pittyfull.. huny and i don't want to call quit to us and forgot everything we have been through juz because of that shit that's why we decided to solve it in one arrangement.. FORGET THAT CERTAIN SHIT BROUGTH MISERY TO OUR RELATIONSHIP NEGLECT WHAT THE HELL HE DID/SAY...start a new one without them..neglecting him not means i'm a coward he might be "correct" as his words but not to hurt him though he did hurt me..elliminate conflicts and don't discuss it..forgetting them is enough for his payment on me(it is also hard to forget the only people knew u well,the real u for 6 years,but that SHIT leaving me no choice,besides my relationshop with her remains till last and we know it is mutual..we were not friends nor bestfiends but we we're called to be soulmate.. and not seeing each other even a talk does not means forgetting..it's just accepting that we were trapped in a life we chose and we had to contuinue no matter what cause somehow we are both happy.)..i know how much they value their(huny and the shit)9 consecutive years of friendship to a 2 year smooth,loving and faithfull relationship and am thankful that huny can do it!for us!for good! as long as we were together..so that means if we will last forever, then he and she we're erased to our biography details!(i love you little baby i used to took care,someday it will be ok besides u were different from him!)

..huny promised and so do i!..this is for good and for peace....

nasan ka na??

bholie ako'y nangungulila sa iyo.. sa mga tawa n halos marinig ng sambayanan ng bulihan, sa paglalasing na halos gumagapang at sa mga dramang di mo namamalayan naishare m na pala..nasaan ka na?..bholie! bholie!bholie!...nakakamiss ka..kung alam mo lang..sa maikling panahon n nagkaxama tau laki ng saya ang naibahagi m sa lyf q!..chenez nuh...drama lang aketchiwa!..kaw ksi d ka na nagpaparamdam!..muzta na life?..so bc to handle b?..how's being mom?..sana magpang abot nmn tau sa chatroom..lol..take care always and god bless u and ur baby and the rest of u'r famz..love u frend and i miss u so much!..mwuahhuggz..

para sa isang kaibigan...

she's a friend named anna a graduate of 2 yr course computer secretarial.. now working in Dubai for the unconditional love to her family..dalaga committed to a guy named raymond also one of my kababata here in Cavite..a one of a kind friend..hindi kami gaanong nagkakilala pero masaya q sa company nia..prangka at totoong tao..masarap at masayang kaxama..nakakabilb ang sobrang pagmamahal sa pamilya..lahat gagawin just to satisfy her famz..unexpectedly ang pagiging malapit nila ng childhood frend q..actually it was a surprise knowing that they we're together not until she told me..the girl was staying at manila for so long and we even meet there for some gatherings, while the guy sticked here at Cavite for his passion and addiction at his vices(on line games) and berks..galing noh..love will find a way talaga..

"i wanna rest..for good"..giraffe says

i used to say that word to my peeps recently..panu ba nmn nkakapagod n kc..i feel very weak..wala n atang ilalakas ang immune system q at katawang lupa..haixx, i am a wonder woman daw..active! pero pagod na ko..napapagod din aq!..but i am tough!i should be! dami nmen pangarap ni honey!..ninsan lang i want to breathe from the hassles or even not hassles juz for a seconds!..masaya q sa ginagawa q pero nanghihina na ko..i miss my old stuffs,old peeps and old vices(hihihi)old hobby...di q lam i juz miss those things..but any ways la nmn regrets..namiss q lang..andami dami q n wento..

buhay seniors..

we had our duty at BMH..this hospital located at Binangonan..(dulo n ata to ng lugar nila!)hmpf!over sa lau grabe from taguig to this place consumes 5 hours of byahe!damn da bah!..at 15 mins travel via bangka aun nsa laguna n daw!..chenez ganun xa kalau which proves n bilog talaga mundo!..harharhar..aun d po sa nanlalait, nagwewento lang n people at that community is quite malalansa poh, no wonder kc tabing tubig na..maranasan m b nmn mg v/s ng taong amoy dyesebel..haru dyos koh..public workz and attitude kelangan talaga..hindi sa namamalastik but still xempre quality service ang bnbgay nmen sa mga kababayan ni dyesebel..hehehe joke lang..seriously nice nmn kame sa tao dun..sarap nga ng feeling kc talagang natutuwa at thankful cla smen..one of the benefits in our profession nararamdaman m n minsan mabuting tao k para sa iba khit n tingin m sa srili m eh worst n..iba't ibang sitch ang makikita m, my natusok ng bakal dahil sa pagtakas sa klase, nagkumbulsyon s sobrang taas ng lagnat, baby n nakagat ng dog pet nila, napako, nsagasaan nalaglag kung san san, bulutong, trangkaso at marami pang iba..sarap sa feeling ng makatulong k sa iba at makarinig ng pasasalamat mula sa kanila..nakakataba ng heart!..un ang ospital na di nmen malilimutan..dami naging kaibigan n taga don at ibang student na kagaya namen..dami nmen naaning papuri at pasasalamat at appreciation..un ang ospital n walang kagamitan at totoong kami ang dapat magprovide..wlang doctor puro first aid ang gumagana at mga formulated inteventions n galing sa paaralan ang ituturo m sa mamamayan..naging guro aq on the spot sa mga nakakabata samen..nakakatuwa kc sa pagkakaalam q wala aqng natututnan cmula ng pumasok ulit aq, nagulat n lng aq my nareretain p pala sken..sa question and answer, so far umaariba ang inyong lingkod poh(whew!malamig nb?)Lol..ung mga nakababatang level sa amin ay naging kaibigan namen at bago kami lumisan ay nagpasalamat sa naibahagi daw nmin na impormasyon sa kanila..kakaplater nmn!harharhar

july 08,2008 kaarawan ng mahal kong honey!..

nyt before nalulungkot aq, coz i had to leave honey alone at his bday eve..sobrang nahirapan aq to think bout it..flight na kc ni kapatid na mike at minsan lang dumating sa bahay ang precious son ni kapatid na cris..we're realy craving for this child minsan lang kc ipahiram smen..haixx ewan q ba..surprisingly napakabibo ng anakish ni kapatid..nakakatuwa at d xa nangingilala o nakakalimot kahit matagal na di nmen nakikita...so aun n nga..i prepared a surprise for honey para kahit wla aq mafeel nia n kaxama nia q..i bougth hon a bunch of flower, balloons and a cake with his fav pulboron..juz a simple gift that i knew he will love.. sweet q noh..harharhar..so thankful din to bunso kc she help me in preparing those...kahit n malate late xa sa practice nia for center for pop..sobrang salamat bunso..aun super tawag at txt c honey sken..natuwa nmn aq kc nagustuhan nia..and i expected it..pix to be followed n lang..d p kc na upload eh

ang sakripisyo(na naman!) ni kapatid na mike...

ito din ang araw na inihatid namin c kapatid sa airport.. di na ito bago sa ilang beses na paghatid nmen sa kanya..ang bago sa tagpong ganito ay kung cno ang kaxama nyang bebot n maghahatid sa kanya!haru ang prinsipe kong kapatid in fairness pretty mga naghahatid!..at my chika galore pa kaming nasaksihan..sa NAIA nakita nmen ang ama ng bestfrend ni honey na aswa ng babaeng nanugod smen noon dahil sa anak nyang minahal ang super frend q..itago naten xa sa pangalang kuya diding na sawa ni claring na kaxamang my hinatid na ayon sa informant n itatago sa pangalang queen ay kabit daw ng lalaking gwuapito sa aming kalugaran na my asawa at itatago sa pangalang toto!..haru!eto ay wento lamang ng informante..hehehe dyahe man pero nagchizmisan daw sa NAIA...

witch yoo-hee..

haru chenelyn nakakakilig uu kaso nakakaumay ang palabas na ito!totoong mganda xa kaso ang pangit ng ending hindi nakakasatisfy!haixx nakakaasar lang!..cnubaybayan p nmn namen ni honey para madisappnt lang..

angels

thank you for coming into our lives..hope to be with you or rather have one of you soon cute angels..

masaya talaga..

ang saya ng sitch q ngayon ngpapasalamat aq kc sobrang smooth although ang nsa risk nmn this time ay ang health q..okey lang sa akin un kc aq lang mgsusuffer..kaya q tiisin un kung aq lang apoktado wag lang c mama, c kua mike,c kua cris, c cj, c ate jeny at ang mahal qng honey at pamilya nya.. cmula ng natuto aq magpray cla lagi ang sangkap dun..salamat sa pagiging parte ng buhay nio..nmakal n mahal q kau..subra!..

what Karren means

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.