Happy Birthday Bru!

Happy happy birthday hope everything's great and fall into right pieces.I miss you a lot. I don't want to spoil your day the reason why I never greeted you. I am so much broken. I don't know when I'll be okay. I don't want to see nor talk to all of you. Not because I am mad at you guys but because I can't show anymore cause got nothing to show off. I deleted my FB too. Maybe soon I will be ok. But as soon as you needs me. Isang text lang..Kahit di ako ok walang excuses..You still have my number..You know where to find me. I love you bru..

 

Thank You for the Fun

I was so down and depressed after the result of NLE released. Yes I did not make it and I can't understand why. I am pretty sure of all my answers but it turned out nothing. I even leave my blog in preparation for that right?! But where the hell it brought me? To sadness and despair. But that despair need not to show. I must be brave enough facing this kind of situation or else I will break  down which was the least thing I don't want to happen not for me but for my family who sees me as a tough person.

Too much of dramas. I just realized it was just a day after I felt too depress and then I managed to be out with girlfriends! What a fast recuperating ayt?! I still feel sadness when I think that still I can't work in a hospital by next month. But thinking that this sadness only make me freeze for any goals I wanted to pursue. I can do any other things that I know am better to and continue life more bubbly and goal directed. (pagsubok lang yan kha!) 

Yesterday girlfriends invited me to watched In Your Eyes which was the girlfriends and Ate Niko's want to watch and posted  on some of her entry. At the end of the movie all of us felt not so contented.hahaha. I don't know if the reason was number one: its us(mean girls) that  was looking for something not included in the movie;or two: The movie was really made incomplete. Hahaha either choices were mean..lol But anyways I did enjoy the date. Especially the "suggestion part" hahaha..( bawal magsuggest at ikaw ang manglilibre!) I almost shouts that I failed NLE just to be free to treat all..hahaha See does it shows depression?! hahaha

 But seriously thank you girlfriends for lifting me up with your words(Nhene and Paul and Thata) And for the bubbly and game company of Ate Niko.

Another 2 n 1

When it talks about movie, I really don't want to miss this kind of topic. As a matter of fact I do wants to join the Tuesday Couch Potato of Ms. Kikamz, one of the Marce Club whom also a friend of Girls Talks former and current hostess(Ate Niko and K). 

Since my fault and yes I keep on blaming my forget full me regarding on why I did not have a prepared scheduled post. Here's my 2 in 1 entry.

For a movie I watched with my sissy, My bru [ Lea Manirich Tuscano Dejarlo] most of the kind of movies we watched are those we can't watch with our other girl friends..hahahaha ..Those movies that was addressed as jologs,corny etc. It's not because we are those kind [jologs] but out of curiosity we watched. Though at the end of the film we  burts immediately in the cinema floor different comment or feedback whether we like it or not  that what we have seen and just laugh about it. Also horror movies. We are afraid of watching it but we want to. She can't horribly scream if she's with the other  girl friend, she's ashamed if she did and she must be..hahahaha.  She can't cry with the other gal friend in a movie house. The last movie we have seen was a year and 4 months ago. 

That was the tagalog horror movie T3. Starring Ms. Maricel Soriano and Mika dela Cruz, Angelika Dela Cruz younger sister. It was a story of Maricel whom an orphan and  when grew old works as a part time social worker who takes care of abandoned, lost or  orphan child and assisting in giving new family that will take good care of them or to its relatives. Mika which is a daughter of a man and a fairy. She was then an orphan and her relatives which also fairies wanted her to bring back to their immortal world but the child refuses and wanted to live  normally. Maricel fought for Mika and eventually became her guardian.

For a treat to an enemy, which I know as of now I don't have any, I would like to recommend the Bride Wars by Gary Winick featuring Kate Hudson and Anne Hathaway.In Manhattan, the lawyer Liv and the school teacher Emma have been best friends since their childhood. They both are proposed to by their boyfriends on the same day and they plan their wedding parties in Plaza Hotel, using the services of the famous Marion St. Claire. However, due to Marion's secretary's mistake, their weddings are scheduled for the same day. None of them agrees to change the date and they become enemies, trying to sabotage the wedding party of the rival.  
Hmm I can't think of any enemy I have watched or will be watching this but one thing for sure if I'd watched this with him/her, at the end of the movie we will realize one thing..What is it?..Well watched with an enemy then to know..hahahaha

This is my share for Girls Talk .. Now I am not late and I made it earlier!ha! :) Happy GT! Enjoy reading more of our girls sharing just click the badge.

Super Nikz

Seems like a superhero?! hahaha But yes she did to some of her friends. And I am so glad that we are now! Super thanks for the help and for the tutorials and most especially my new yet in the womb baby..wink ;D
In return to her kindness folks, kindly help me make her happier, and get to know her best at her babies.

Super Niko
Wifey Niko
Mommy Niko
Niko Girl
Fashionista Nikz
Working Niko
Niko's Home
Niko's Plate and Me

Artsy Niko

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Reunited

Hello World! :D 

Got no time to post that's why this corner seemed abandoned but it's not. Actually I have plans to but finally decided to not. This blog may or may not give me any profit I have decided not to abandon, because this is my first blog and serves to be my book of my life. I have had started here so , long live these blog lol. Oh by the way thank you people for passing by at my mansion here. I so loved your foot prints on my chats.. Gracias! 

Reunited number 1! 

I am again reunited with my blog.Though no good news at all about my missing PR and blocked  account but as what I have decided that I am not gonna leave this behind or just remain this corner in the corner.hihihihi 

Reunited Number 2! 

It has been a busy schedule for both of us. Actually I never expects that this day will come again. Though we are incomplete yet it was the same feelings as before that nothing's happened. New stories, new sharing but same old bonding and feeling. How open we are to each other. How we share thoughts, ideas and past hatreds to each other. How we learned new things together. How we again revived the relationship that has been buried for a year and 2 months. It was such a great intense happy feeling of sharing the same old laughs with you Bru.

I am starting to recuperate from a busy life or just to say getting used to it. Now I am comfy blogging and already accepted though Mr. G doesn't love me, I still love him.lol. Time will come he will explain to me everything and give me everything and also those I did not ask for hahahaha.

P.S

Beloved friendships kindly visit me at my happy borned health sharing blog and our cheesy history blog. Hope to see you Sissy's there.. Love.Love.Love

Cool Mommy Liz

You make My Day :D

Your it! You really made me happier on your thoughtful ways.. Ate Jenie never forgot me on her list. And because of that I am so thankful meeting You in this universe.

. 7 hidden facts about me

1. I am an ambitous, romantic and joyful day dreamer. I   
   almost day dreamt of everything..hahaha(ambisyosa in  
   tagalog..) 

 2. I am sweet not.. I don't know how to express exactly  
     but I am a sweet type. ( trouble in expressing hahaha) 

3. I am a cry baby not..Nobody knows because I can handle  
   very much but the truth is I am indeed one. ( my bru told 
   me best actress daw ako lolz) 

4. I love to travel anywhere if I can 

5. I am a risk taker and adventurous

6. A mean person some assume first impressions. 

7. I am honestly and truthfully in love ..(cheesy) 

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Finally

To You,
          To the person I have said "hi" earlier, I was opt to said that. Thinking that you might ignore me. I am ashamed of yet I don't know why but I shouldn't be. At first I wasn't looking at you because I am afraid for you to give me an rejection snob.I don't know how to approach you. If it is the scenario that pushed you not to reject my "hi" I gladly thank for it. I am happy.Really do, that for somehow I finally got the courage and you did not ignore me. If you might not asking you were my mentor in here.. I was reading your post even before it has a magenta template,change to shades of green, the quietly passionate and so on. Even before it was sniper--- url. I've been silently a reader of yours. Maybe you have been called a dry writer but what I know about you was, you just express your inner thoughts and share your experience.

 

Ms... Yah It's You!

I hate you cause I don't want you.
You're too liberal.
You don't care what other people say.
You always hide your real feelings.
Sometimes you explode but still in compose.
You were sensitive. But not.
You care too much though it has been neglected by others.
You doesn't care enough for yourself.
You are an extreme being.

For the times I stayed near you, I hate seeing you..Why?

Because I know I can't be with you to share more laughter, more vices and more green geeky ideas.

I hate you because somehow for some aspect I saw myself in you.

I hate you because I want to be part of your life but I can't be..

Thank you for  the little time.

It's Odd to be Part of Someone's Life

 I am not in regret having few very few people I trusted of my life.All about my life.The reality of what Karren is. And being part of my life also given me the chance to be then accepted to their life. But it's kinda odd feeling when some stuffs happen never in your whole life figured out will happened. Knowing the persons you welcomed in your life. But as my motto expect nothing..So it comes to be it.But I am just human though I tried not but I can still feel disappointments. Nevertheless be carefree would be the best attitude I shall learn. After everything happened I noticed myself being aloof to people. Afraid of having someone to called real trusted friend.Trusting no one. Aside from people I used to trust before. That's the dilemma. The actual result. Being part of someone's life and feeling odd after wards not a good experience at all. I don't want to close door but as of the moment I just feel giving value much to people I have from the beginning rather than accepting new.Be a good person, be a friend but not a very dear friend.

I just want to breath.





P.S
Actually this feeling already gone and overcome..Just want to breath and share the thoughts of the dilemma happened before.. way back 5 months ago..hehehe

Beggar's Cannot Be Choosers

Since I am working in a company wherein Yahoo Messenger is a necessity I do got this opportunity to chat friends online abroad. Whom can jive me at my graveyard shift work.(opposite to where they are it's morning of coarse). Got to chat with a long not so lost friend Kevin Atienza. He's my buddy on my Nursing 100 at Emilio Aguinaldo College Manila Campus. He was such a great good buddy(actually I have 3 good doods right at that time). He offers me a ride( I am a beggar student lol.) Going to the university and home vice versa!(shala I'm a beggar in a VIOS service with a driver *Kevin*). It happens that he lives at United Paranaque Subdivision where have to pass through Bagong Lipunan Condominium at Taguig Manila. Lucky I am he's a friend of mine. I have had a free ride and our schedule really fits. Kevin was a naughty one. If you can't ride on his green and blastoff jokes you will get irritated . But he really had a big heart. Countless times I remember treating me to some expenses on school group projects. The other two was Romer and Jayson(the mj guy)hahaha. Well anyway title came from him actually. He's now on the states and a registered US Nurse but unfortunately he was jobless. Nurse competition really going strict even abroad.. He was living there with his parents yet job opportunity for him quite hard to find. He ask why at the middle of the night I was looling around on using YM. Got to received a sarcastic answer from me says "I am also at the states, you're not the only person can "be" here hahaha" .And that conversation starts. I mentioned for real that I am in the BPO industry and it basically follows eastern schedule. Then he ask why am I not in the hospital, he's aware I graduated. Told him facts. Compensation, treatment to Filipino nurses and how will I survived life if I'd be faithful to our line of service. In my suspense he agreed. Kevin really wanted to be a nurse from then. And he had this perception of staying at the field no matter how countless graduates we have in the country.No matter the competition may take. That's why a surprise when he said beggars cannot be choosers. He admits his parents has wealth but still aware that it wasn't his own. He called himself a beggar because of not earning for his self. He told me that if he was in the country right now he might as well chose to be in the same industry as I was and forget the dumbness perception if that could give him life. It's not the sake of money but the sake of living. Contrary to blogs of nurses I've read here in the blogosphere, turning back to our service, forgetting the four year sacrifices wasn't actually about it. For me and for those who did the same, it's not about the money right, it still being a nurse, the adaptability on generation and life paced we had now. Somehow it was not that far. (justifying the means)lol

Jean Finally Hit the Spot

Last July, My friend Jean posted about hitting the spot . Telling stories of pregnancy about common friends. And as I have read it right she was also wishing when she will be going to hit her spot! Finally she did!..I mean she and Joey did..hahaha.. 

I went to her place yesterday just to ask for something not so important, when she shared me the good news. I not even beleive at first because she always kid on me about pregnancy!. But after I have had internalized the reality she's saying I felt so excited for her. She will be having her baby, aside from her bhaby (joey). She's going to be a mom! I even ask her what would be the baby's name!hehehe Yey! It's one of the great great gift she received before her birthday. And another baby will be born with the BPS! So excited as in!. Hopefully Jean wouldn't suffer too much from pregnancy. Knowing Jean, her immune system became quite weak after way back what happened before as we had a conversation last night. She need and a must to be as healthy as she can for the sake of her baby and also herself. I advised her to find her Obstetrician Gynecologist as early as now. So that she and her baby will be taking care that well. As for Joey, I am so bow to this guy after all the hardships he have been through with Jean,(given by Jean lol) he really proves his love for her. And I will surely know he would take care that much for his now family. Friend Congratulations!.. I envy you both. But that was just as that. I think I am still not yet ready. hehehe.. 

The BPS...

It's been 7 years since we last celebrated or had a get together party at our house. After the high school graduation, everyone took different path.Two of the peers became moms, one have had to migrate in not so far place, I have had to continue college in Manila, some busy working and some also busy studying(as if! hehehe). And it seems so hard to booked for a time for each and everyone to see each other.. Even birthdays and holidays passed by just by a simple greeting through technology. Though the thought was there yet it still different being together, greeting personally. To think that we were only living at one place not that a bigger community except for one, its really a hard thing to see each other due to our schedules and commitments. Finally we've got the best slot for everyone to have a reunion and that was last Sunday of August, the 30th. It's a nice feeling seeing again the old peeps. Those whom you enjoyed your teenage life with. Those whom you are with when curiosity attacks. Those who still guides even at the same age. The old dramas, the old laughs. Why BPS? For some reason I keep on laughing about it as I remembered where the hell group name got. It's in the pen's name.Why? Just nothing. Aivee was drunk and the pen was the first thing she saw with a name after Laura ask for our groups name. Non particularly a description at all. Way back in high school, I was belonged to a sectioned named after a type of tree which is Banaba. We have had our class adviser which was an old maid teacher who seems anemic because of her color for being so pale. Her name was Ms. Bautista. Our group consist of 11 females with some extra guys..hahaha. It is a hobby for us way back then drinking alcohol beverages even at school and we were in a class. Sorao even cutting mine or Carol's hair as our values education subject runs. And Aivee when drunk keep on popping a bubble gum to annoyed teachers and blame somebody she saw near to her if she was caught . Rosie a Cadette officer abuses her authority by commanding the Cadette under her supervision to buy for our alcohol. Jean the ever dearest flirt hahaha..Sarah the forever and still firm and proper.The cousins in crime Laura and Vanessa.And our visitor from Alabang haha Tin.And Chel our import from a different section which is Tin's bestfriend. (from left to rigth)Vanessa,Jean,Sarah,Tin,Rosie & daughter Akira,Aivee,me,Sorao,Laura,Jr,Nymed and Franklin

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This means that this group was still incomplete..Btw the guys were the former crushes/bf of some in BPS(need not to mentioned cause it absolutely means war if I did..hahaha). The guys were also former famous dancers of the school during our times.. Actually guys consist of 6 members which is Nymed,Jr, Franklin, (those were the three guys present)Pogs(missing in action),William(he was also in a party during the reunion momentum), Joseph (family first..now a father of two kids). After enjoying at our crib Jr's cousin/brother arrived and invited for a joyride to Tagaytay but since girls were little bit tipsy, majority chose to have some poured soup somewhere near. Afterwards since the joyride was not pursued( and guys cannot pursued or insist to drunk powerful girls haha)Jr instead invited us in his Bar/ Grill to chill and to drink more. FYI Jr was now running a bar at our place. And he manages it good. Upon seeing it inside it is quite impressive.. The drinking session last until 4 in the morning. For the record there was a scene happened beforehand but not to spoil this post and for the benefit of Laura it wouldn't be mentioned in detailed..haha.. Those guys who were absent at the reunion you've missed a scenario..hahaha

I Miss My Ice Cream Budd..

Remember the time when Formales was having a lecture, we are sitting in front and we keep on laughing for what reason( we can't remember), we can't control our laughs that made other classmates notice us even the professor..And Bhadz seemed to be annoyed because we are still laughing.. until today I can't even remember what was the reason.. Maybe we are just happy that time..so so happy.. I will never ever forget that time of my life.. I was a total insane while studying..

• We laugh even without reason
• We are mean
• We talk everything under the sun
• She saw me in every aspect(even naked one ^_^)
• She listens
• She can't give any perfect or near perfect advices
• She always get mad at me but I can still make her smile
• She always want me to combs my hair
• She always wants me to be sexy in every clothes I wore
• She always lend me a hankie, a tissue, an eyeliner and even gave me own lip gloss
• She knows I always forgot anything in any event
• She believes in me
• She always makes me tough by her own way
• She always lift me when I feel down
• She filled my soul mates shortcomings
• She shares everything on her life as well as I did
• I taught her to be naughty
• I shared part of my life with her
• I knew she loved me as a sister

I miss her so badly.. But time now is different and she chose to be different. I'm tired of reaching out, by time she will understand what I am trying to impose.. I just miss you bru.. Soon everything will be fine... Be brave, be tough.. If you want it on your own, I'll let you alone or rather if you found someone better to lean on ..I am so much happy for you..

• Bru is signing off....

Blog Award

thanks Jeanie to this Friendship love award..

Happy Birthday Orly

Happy birthday Dude.. Orlando Miana hubby of my friend Mary Margaret Cayabyab-Miana, one of my great good buddy.. Hon was once get jealous to him but I explained later why we are that good to each other.. He is a friend whom stayed with me all through out as I am having trouble with my relationships.. We have a lot of good things to remember with regards to our friendship.. and never forget the fact that we can't loose each other as good friends.. Good times gone but still our friendship remains..I am happy for you now that you are with your beloved wife..Be good always..hehehe..Regards to Maria..Pa-starbucks naman jan!!

Meet-ups with the Discrete

Hon met my long lost friends, hehehe actually I was just the only one lost, because for some reason that i can't be on a two paths at the same time.. Same old laughs as we reunited.. Our group of friends is what we can call a sub-friendship..hehehehe I was the only person who has a direct connection each of the person composed of.. and ... We have been established our own troop for the last six years..

Berks Includes:

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KHA

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KHMER was my former schoolmate at Makati,

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GRACE is one of my berks(we are actually in a big peer)

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CIANE a friend introduced by another friend

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ORLY was my friend from his girlfriend

Venue : STARBUCKS MEGA A

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Standby Start Time: 9 in the evening onwards

Official trip: COFFEE DELUXE TIL DAWN/STORE CLOSED WITH LAUGH TRIP WHILE DRAGGING EACH AND EVERYONE FOND TO BULLY SOMEBODY AROUND

Sub-stand by venues: NOVALICHES ROCKWELL TENT

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but Hon only met of the two guys, Grace and Khmer.. Fortunately to Orly ,he was now at Italy with her wife Meg. For Ciane she was now a newbie mom and on the adjustment stage... Yet the fun never ceases although we are not complete. Gladly Hon doesn't feel any discomfort with the guys.. Grace was kinda bitchy type(as we always know) and hon quietly surprise f her words.. Khmer ahmm seems somehow like hon's attitude, somehow a mirror.. After Grace wait for me and Khmer for 3 hours, I haven't seen them for 3 years hehehe, we went to the club at Metrowalk for some chilling night.. Laughs and crazy trip.. and the reunion was not yet up after chillin at the club, we check-in(this is actually Grace' capritzo) for two rooms as we waits for the sun to arise.. Fool of us (hon and i) to be part of grace capritzo though we have our own home.. just one ride from Metrowalk hahaha(cab)

Missing a Lot

On Kevin's wake, I'm feeling somehow happy and excited, not due to his wake, but to the thought of seeing my colleagues..For almost 2 years of straight being with the guys, there such a certain feeling of being with them is an extension of my family.. And without them for such a couple of weeks, I am feeling of missing them that huge... I miss how i laughed with them, how I raised my eyebrows and mean to somebody else out our group...While on our way to my work(bru and i) we've talked a lot about what had happen for the past few weeks we were not together..updating each other on what was new to us.. We really missed each other so much that we almost not tried to stop talking, we never allow anything and anybody to stop us even a single deep breathe wouldn't do so .. At the end of our conversation, a realization both strikes on us,..This is it!.. We are now in the real world, we do have different paths to take though literally we finished the same field... We are not entitled to live together for so long..That too close.. For some reason I do understand why.. He always had a good plan.. The mere fact of bru staying with me will teach her nothing for herself.. She knows how I cared for her a lot and maybe He wanted bru to be officially independent..(it's a wild rationale..) I just don't want to be upset for setting apart with bru.. I feel like this is again a dejavou.. I am quite afraid that my relationship with her will go as the same to Julie.. And for that thought I already feeling depressed... I treasure most the people who really know who I am.. and those people is absolutely few, actually they are only two, Julz and Bru.. Me inside and out, my weaknesses and strength.. my failures and real life success... How I wish I can spend more time with them.. How I missed my girl friends...

Enjoying the Team

First week of training on the new job, I was about to quit.. I don't like one of my group mate and I chose to be nice rather than being mean so I was having a thought of quitting on that job.. But really God was so great He made a thing for me to stay.. I was then belong to a group better than I was with.. These such a group which is a real cool... Full of laughs, full of trips..Pamacsavers, laugh trip on the way home, and an ever ending transactions were studying of.. We are indeed back of being students.. As a matter of fact the training room was named as a university of Davao..hahaha.. Here are some of the reason that holding back to love my work...

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Paolo a RN, Bibo and active dude.. kinda sweet friend.. (malakas mang-asar sa iba)hahaha..he's my left wing seatmate.. one of the Pamacsavers and way home buddy..

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Aileen the hot chick..love her dresses... The banker... my right wing seatmate, often times my buddy but we never learned that much from each other instead we had laughed of everything around..a way home bud too...

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Joan a typical "kimi" of our batch, timid, simple... She was my former school mate... lack of self-confidence..but she was really a sweet and thoughtful gal..

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Noel at first quite confuse of his gender,, but eventually with facts of coarse, I had found out that he was really a straight guy.. it's just that he was a firm and proper type.. But he's actually one of the nicest guy..(hehe we only have 3 guys on the training room)... no doubt he's indeed a good and liable buddy..

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Meech funny mamie.. loves to laugh as she describe herself.. straight forward and also a bibo one..a pantry porch bud..

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R-chie a "Katoliko" of the Pamacsavers and a pantry porch bud..Psychology-semi psychotic ata hahahaha peace Chie.. Just a look at him you will surely laugh at his thoughts,

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Whoa!.. our soon(if ever) QA on the work floor Ms. Rachel.. my new crush at the office slash school.. one of a beautiful face I've seen so far at the workplace for about 3 weeks of lolling' around..

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Clementine the "NSBS" way home bud.. The certified virgin of the batch... sometimes slow but we can't blame her, she's young and most of all a "V"..hahaha.. Such a nice girl too..

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Julie or DJ whatever... tahimik pero malufett.. that was her... never been a pantry porch bud yet but maybe soon.. One look at her you know that she has a lot on her head..

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Ana a broken hearted sweetheart... a Pamacsavers bud, so soft-spoken, seems sweet(maybe partially)hihihi, but also a cruela devil..hahaha..R-chie's love team..

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Ae-jaey, hmm she prefer her pseudo name to be spelled like this so I will give her the privilege on my page.. One of Pamacsavers bud.. so much in-love to her "Cece"... she belongs to one of malakas mang-asar troops..

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Teewee look a like of Yasmin Kurdi.. kikay, maingay, brat of the batch, she was the batch Electrifying Volta... a pantry porch bud too...

Those are only the few guys make my night exciting.. Actually only one make me miserable..hahaha.. But as what I have said I chose to be nice that's why she affects me, but if I chose to be me,hmmm I am even mean.. Hopefully we would still be together on the work floor..