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Thursday, June 4, 2009

Missing a Lot

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On Kevin's wake, I'm feeling somehow happy and excited, not due to his wake, but to the thought of seeing my colleagues..For almost 2 years of straight being with the guys, there such a certain feeling of being with them is an extension of my family.. And without them for such a couple of weeks, I am feeling of missing them that huge... I miss how i laughed with them, how I raised my eyebrows and mean to somebody else out our group...While on our way to my work(bru and i) we've talked a lot about what had happen for the past few weeks we were not together..updating each other on what was new to us.. We really missed each other so much that we almost not tried to stop talking, we never allow anything and anybody to stop us even a single deep breathe wouldn't do so .. At the end of our conversation, a realization both strikes on us,..This is it!.. We are now in the real world, we do have different paths to take though literally we finished the same field... We are not entitled to live together for so long..That too close.. For some reason I do understand why.. He always had a good plan.. The mere fact of bru staying with me will teach her nothing for herself.. She knows how I cared for her a lot and maybe He wanted bru to be officially independent..(it's a wild rationale..) I just don't want to be upset for setting apart with bru.. I feel like this is again a dejavou.. I am quite afraid that my relationship with her will go as the same to Julie.. And for that thought I already feeling depressed... I treasure most the people who really know who I am.. and those people is absolutely few, actually they are only two, Julz and Bru.. Me inside and out, my weaknesses and strength.. my failures and real life success... How I wish I can spend more time with them.. How I missed my girl friends...

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~mEow~ said...

aww..that's so sweet bru..:) how lucky i'am to have a best-est friend like u..:) and lucky to be treasured by you..:D knowing u..you're a person with a lot of things in mind,either it is good or bad..ur sweet, fuuny, smart and flexible..a very fun person to be with..missed the times with you bru..alabxhu..xoxo..:*