happy-not?...

im a hapi but i am not?...hmm confusing ayt?..there were sitch that i shud be happy but the other way around i am not.. what shud i do..how will i gain a one good feeling regarding to the "confusing" matter?..haixx..hardz nman netech!..so thankful p din jan p rin c honey..haixx...waaaa anu na..bkit b d q din ma ipost/maisulat ung dapat?..natatakot b q?but i want to be proud din at the same time!hala dumadami na ung nakakalito..taeng life nmn uh!..T_T